THE TOP

I seen nights I never did deserve
Whether positive or negative, I’m twistin words
Make a solid from a sedative, my flows golden, I’m Hulk Hogan it seems
Until I’m stuck between the sheets and I’m holdin to dreams
It’s hard to make worth outta hurt, standin on it still, I try to make work outta work
Damages I feel just underscore every new position
Wishin I could un-implore you to pay attention, niggas don’t know how to listen
I’ll remember this when I do get the recognition
And I’ll remember how I lacked it when I worked to get it
I’ll remember how you acted back when shit was different
And how it changed when I couldn’t be the same, it was always bout the way they feel
I ain’t the problem, it was always bout the way I heal
And everybody wanna tell me that they love the way the music sounds
But never hear the words, and shit, if that’s the deal
I guess it’s lonely at the top
It’s gon be lonely at the top
Truth is
That no one talk about the bottom but they really feel the same
Even talkin bout my problems feel like it ain’t shit to gain
You can try to help me solve em, but you could be to blame
Even though I’m on the rise, promise it ain’t nothin changed
I’ve been swimmin in my brain
It’s a lotta people that was supposed to love me, never showed me
Got a lotta friends supposed to be in weddings, died alone
And the fact that a third was accidents, another half was violence
And the last fifth was chance, it’s a lot to pile on
I be fightin with my memories, inciting different energy
Enticed by accolades, too tied to how they remember me
Tweakin on my mama cuz I wished that things went differently
Burnin from the drama, feel like fortune just been skippin me
Me and Miles watchin soccer teams from Italy
Talkin bout the surface like our problem really Little League
Tryna make some sense out more than money, it’s a skill to breathe
Even when we close enough to get it, gotta build to read
And no one cares enough to look, it’s gon be lonely at the top, floor
And my brothers keep me posted every time we all apart, we never talk, though
And no one talk about the bottom but they really feel the same
Even talkin bout my problems feel like it ain’t shit to gain
You can try to help me solve em, but you could be to blame
Even though I’m on the rise, promise it ain’t nothin changed
I’ve been swimmin in my brain
And I know it’s rarely worth it
I’ve been swimmin in my brain
I know that nothing’s perfect
No one talk about the bottom but they really feel the same
Even talkin bout my problems feel like it ain’t shit to gain
You can try to help me solve em, but you could be to blame