Conversations With Myself

I've been color blind between black and white
Hiding out in camouflage
Everything is night in a sea of light
All I do is sabotage

Fighting those battles inside of my chest
Dreading whatever comes next
When I give my all still I'm two feet tall
No one knows I'm

Laying in the dark
My head and my heart
Picking me apart
No ceiling when these feelings start
They don't wanna stop
Dancing with the clock
3 AM
I'm patiently waiting for the sun
Hoping heaven gets me out of hell
I know that it's weighing on my health
Having conversations with myself

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Loneliness is my own fault
Make 'em think I'm fine 'cause it kills my pride
Say nobody cares at all

I just wanna let go of the pain
Maybe I should give myself some grace
Talking to these walls, yeah they've heard it all
They can see me

Laying in the dark
My head and my heart
Picking me apart
No ceiling when these feelings start
They don't wanna stop
Dancing with the clock
3 AM
I'm patiently waiting for the sun
Hoping heaven gets me out of hell
I know that it's weighing on my health
Having conversations with myself

I got a demon on my left, angel on my right
I'm somewhere in the middle of the fight
God I'm such a mess, water in my eyes
Hoping that tomorrow I'll be fine

Laying in the dark
My head and my heart
Picking me apart
No ceiling when these feelings start
They don't wanna stop
Dancing with the clock
3 AM
I'm patiently waiting for the sun
Hoping heaven gets me out of hell
I know that it's weighing on my health
Having conversations with myself