Disappearing Act

Im distracted, not attracted
You attach without connection
As I self serve my diffracted mind
I dont want what I need
I dont care about the scars I leave
Your name and smile a thrown out file
As soon as we break away

Only when I hate you do I really love myself

I will only bring you pain
I can only hurt you

You wont want me then Ill want you
When you come back I wont want you
Pushed and pulled our minds will rip in two

Im so scared of what I need I dont care
About the scars received
I live in self denial
Im afraid of what Ive got

I dont know why I hate you when you love me

I can only bring you pain
I can only hurt you
I can only let you down

My lifes the lies of you and i
Ive grown so hard that I deny
accusations even When theyre true
My pain is all I trust I dont care
How much I bleed
Dont regret the time you met me
Dont hold the harm I did against me

I dont know why I want to hurt you When you touch me

I will only bring you pain
I can only hurt you
I will only let you down

Why do you stick around and let me do this?
Why do you stick around for this torture?

Only when Im with you do I want to be without, yeah!
Your eyes are the windows to the emptiness inside me