​​i wont lie, i know its my fault

I think it's time I quit asking me why
I sit and watch the ceiling in the nighttime
I don't have nothin' left in me to fight
Why do I always quit before I try

Saying it's over
I don't want to force the closure
I just want to free my shoulders
And I can't lie, I let it take over
Feeding into all the lies
With no compromise
And if it could be any different
Reaching and creating distance
A victim to my own decisions
I know, but I can't lie