Flux Density

My mission is accomplished
I found him. He found me
He is not who I expected
The house tells of awesome trips
Many lives lived

He talks fast but with many pauses
He tried to find me again and again
He says he loved my mother and deeply detested
But he's almost grateful today
Because this moment pays, pays him back for everything

There are the times when I lose parts of his speech

He cries and sometimes
He doesn't look at me in my eyes
I know what he would like to do
He would love me as all the people do
He would like to hold me in his arms

But he doesn't, because he knows me
Even if we never met he knows me
And while a sea of words flood this house
I'm on a cloud

The biggest door I've ever seen in my head
Is wide open
And gently leads me into the void
Maybe my fear can have a rest
Maybe this is my little taste of happiness