Open Letter

I should have listened then
Back in March when you had said
We weren't gonna happen
I thought you'd find me in the end

I wish I never did it
But on a second glance
I was going through it
I just wanted you to dance

I wish that you would pick up
Your cell phone when I call you
I just wanna talk about
The stupid things I say and do

I was there for everything
I swore I'd never leave you
I showed up to your concerts
And I dragged my friends to bars

I told you that I loved you
And that I was gonna marry you
I even told my aunt
And now I wish I hadn't said that

I kissed pages of my notebook
And told myself that one day
You would get to read my
Stupid little poetry

And now I know I shouldn't
Kiss pages before dating
I think that's how you killed me
I think that's how this killed me

Met a boy who shared a name with
A writer I admire
I just thought that maybe
He could fill the missing pages

He's such a lovely guy, but
I can't convince myself that
He plays the part I wrote for you
I think I'm just pretending

I thought I was untouchable
I thought I was invincible
Until the day you touched me
And you turned my heart magenta

I wish that I could take it back
Love notes that I almost sent
I wish that I could get back
The year you were my everything

And nobody can fix this
No boys with pretty faces
No girls in Massachusetts
Telling me I'll be okay

I wish that I could hug her
I wish that I could hug you
I wish that I could get back
The love that I have yet to lose

I really hope you kiss her
Wrap her up in blankets
Read her bedtime stories
And tell her all your secrets

I hope that you love her
The same way I have promised
I would always love you
No matter what would happen