Sabotaging Myself

Long days
Longer nights
Pay the price
For things I do when I'm not thinking right

What a way
To go and waste
A perfect thing
That's why I say that you should leave me 'fore I

Mess up things up on my own terms
I try to get better but I won't learn
And every good thing I've had
I've held up to a flame
And started crying when it all burned
And maybe I just need something to cope with
Every time I'm over being broken
I self inflict myself with tragedies and just keep going

Keep going like nothing happened as the walls come falling down
Keep going like nothing happened as the walls come falling down

They come falling
They come falling down
And we're falling
Oh, we're falling now
I'm sabotaging
I'm sabotaging myself
I'm sabotaging
I'm sabotaging myself

And now you tell me that you love me just to feel something
But you can't expect that from me 'cause I feel nothing
We got lost inside a world we didn't know we're in
Now we're running to a place that really don't exist

I recognize I'm reckless occasionally
And that just gives me reasons I should keep you away from me
I don't expect to meet someone who has any faith in me
I have none in myself
And know that there's no escaping me
But maybe I can warn you
Maybe I can keep you from the pain I've seen before you
Maybe I could mess it up now
Instead of mess it up later
When I'm pushing you away
I feel I'm doing you a favor
'Cause there's gonna be a time that comes when I'm not around
And all the walls that we built will come falling down

They come falling
They come falling down
And we're falling
Oh, we're falling now
I'm sabotaging
I'm sabotaging myself
I'm sabotaging
I'm sabotaging myself

And now you tell me that you love me just to feel something
But you can't expect that from me 'cause I feel nothing
We got lost inside a world we didn't know we're in
Now we're running to a place that really don't exist
And now you tell me that you love just to feel something (they come falling, they come falling down)
But you can't expect that from me 'cause I feel nothing (and we're falling, oh, we're falling now)
We got lost inside a world we didn't know we're in (I'm sabotaging, I'm sabotaging myself)
Now we're running to a place that really don't exist (I'm sabotaging, I'm sabotaging myself)