Not Giving You My Best

I know that I've been digging in the dirt
I know that people are getting hurt
I know when the darkness settle in
and everyone's wondering where I've been
when the river's run in reverse
and I'm deep under the flowing curse
Well I know I'm really messed
when I'm not giving you my best

You know that there's logics broken path
You know I'm working with some shakey math
You know when the shadows take over
and all I do is look over my shoulder
when the winds are blowing
the beasts teeth are showing
I know I've reached the crest
when I'm not giving you my best

We all know that times are getting harder
We all know it takes courage it takes ardour
We all know when the means are thin
and the grounds are sinking in
getting dragged so low
back to zero
And I know I'm even less
when I'm not giving you my best

Won't you please forgive me
I'm falling away
In the hideous now
and the disperate fray"