INTRXSPECTIXN.

[VERSE]
Some people in life are temporary presence
In your life just to teach you a lesson
Never know who they are till they desert you and leave 
I pray for wisdom to distinguish them and see in between
Trapped like a mosquito in tree sap
Reach out to me, I’m sorry I never hit back
I got love for you, just lacking the energy
Sometimes I feel like I’m drowning with concrete strapped to both of my feet
Everybody think they mature, but brain ages different
I see your childish maneuvers sleeping with 100 women
Cover up your pain by hating and then hella drinking
No stable relationship will ever make you fucking listen
Daddy issues got you acting like you hella manly
When you alone I see you lacking that vulnerability
Everybody just a product of they family
Do you bottle up your remorse? Sometimes I let mine get to me
Mommy issues got you feeling like you lost, looking for intimacy in everyone that you love
You never had that sense of security you long, illusion is peeling off, you see the past for what it really was
My train of thought is split across different compartments
From cold hotel sheets to new apartments
To hot summers with cold hearts, in the winter your warmed me, I’ll never forget the way that my puzzle was complete
On the edge like a boat headed to waterfall, constantly anxious that I won’t wake up and see tomorrow
Will I overcome my fear of death before it overcome me?
Trickle down to the last drop, till bottle empty
Introspection, this a letter to myself, a message
Listen to me carefully, your talent god given
Take your words and use them wisely until they pay off
Use them as your outlet to vent, the balance stay strong
Attracted to the light when shit’s dark, you are my star in the night and you stay bright in the fog
My hope ain’t gone
Brutally depressed, ‘cause of stress, I’m emotionally distressed but that doesn’t mean I don’t think that I’m blessed
A lot of people would be lucky to have what I have
A family and friends, with a roof above my head
A will to keep moving on no matter what
Curiosity, I wanna see where life will turn me up
Motivation, I speak with every bone in my body and my blood run thicker then all of you motherfuckers
I’m done, beating myself up for what I am
Don’t respect me or don’t love me then you can go fuck yourself
I’m not wasting time on the antics anymore, focusing on what I love and whatever bring me forward 
I gotta put in work and then life will show rewards, but I gotta get my head right first 
Introspection

[BRIDGE]
Sometimes I feel like just living my life seeing shit thru a little window
[OUTRO]
I hear their voices and they’re knocking on my head again
I don’t want it no more
My hearts an open book with pages torn and letter smudged
Can you read it?