Absence of Control

I swore I'd tear this city down
Brick by brick
I still wear the scars across my back
From the knife you slipped
I hung the traitors by their necks
I built this dream
On blood and sweat
I stood to face the jury of wolves

And now I've spent a lifetime
Living as a sinking ship
I only ever lifted spirits
When I went to take a sip
Now the hounds have come to get me
I'm still shipwrecked where you left me
If I don't make it
Then don't forget me
Don't forget the heart I sold
I face this struggle every day
It's year 8 now
I'm not afraid
I'm facing facts this life is all I know
And we revel in the absence of control