The Behemoth

I am the monster under the bed
I am home to the angel and the demon
Fucking each other in my head
I am a host to a parasitic
Reminder of my regrets
And my temper, its embers
Burn in me
I am weaker, now that I'm bulletproof
I plead innocent to the ectothermic
Murder of my youth
And I've been ignorant to the scorching beacon
Burning away the blue
In the sky, since this violence
Burned in me
I am a tense little prick
I am a rhapsody spic
I am so unprepared
To admit that I'm sick
I am a penitent rage
Unbearable age
An ungodly display
Of a manic decay
And I am so desperate for a new way to live
And I am so desperate to be in someone else's skin
'Cause I am too scared to live
Too scared to die
Too enraged to forgive
Too afraid to get high
So help me, help me
Pretend to care
Miss Hepburn, Hepburn
If you dare
Wake me up, wake me up
Wake me up from this ugly dream
Wake me up, wake me up
Wake me up from this deathless sleep
Wake me up, wake me up,
Because this hatred is killing me
Wake me up, wake me up
Wake me from my complacency
Wake me up
Wake me up
Wake me up
Wake me up
As I wake up from this sleep
Of unkindness and apathy
The woman washed up from the sea
Whispers something cold to me
Tales of the Sun god's silent kiss
With words unspoken on her lips
Shadows moving in the mist
Of my soul's apocalypse
And I don't know if the story is true
But I'm taking every ounce of faith
And I'm giving it to you
Oh, you'll never see it coming
Until it's standing at your door
To mend your scars with anger
Before you're bursting at the seams
And then you wake up someone different
You're not the same girl as before
You're ugly, but you swear
Nothing is ever as it seems
I think it took my faith
I think it stole my wits
I don't believe in Hell
'Cause nothing's worse than this
This behemoth is my rage
The healing is my fault
The scabs that made me so unwell
The beast that I live to exalt
But I couldn't see him coming
'Til he was standing at my door
To mend my scars with anger
And leave me broken at the seams
And then I woke up someone different
Never the same boy as before
Hiding the truth
Everything is exactly as it seems
And it tore through me like a hurricane
Killing me like a hand grenade
But I was the one who let it in
Yeah, I was the one who pulled the pin
The Sun is too dark to see
Air too thin to breathe
Faith hard to believe
Help me turn back the time
Before I lost my mind
Before the days unkind