Tides

I can't be alone since this thing inside me takes over just like an abscess. Tried so many times to fight you but still I remain hopeless, cannot win against myself. All that i love gets lost in a dark fog
The colors of life run right before my eyes

It's only me and my demons. I can barely feel them shade my mind. Like the tides they return again and again, until there is no hope left to find. Oh, please make me stop thinking before there's nothing left of me. I keep running, running away, running away from myself, until my goddamn lungs collapse. I became such a stranger to myself
While noone here seems to understand me

This is no imagination, this is as real as you and me
Don't turn your back away. I need to shut these voices down

All this thinking, ironacally brought me exactly to the place, I always feared to see. The voices continue to complete their work
But I refuse to live my life in this fucking coffin

Right now, nothing can fucking hold me back
I'm fucking done to be forced to play this game
And once again, i got no price for all the times that i survived
It is the same shit, no matter where i go
The hands of death, they grab my neck while he just laughs at my face. These thoughts will soon be the end of me
Yeah i am sorry but i can't draw hope in this cold room inside me
This vision, that my eyes reflect shall burn to motherfucking ashes
Let's see what's under the Surface