avoidance

Somehow I let this get to me
All in my head all in my room
Nobody can get to see this
All where I've been All that I said
Cant take it back, repeat it
Falling up I'm falling fast
I'm falling way up out the deep end
Ran out of time I can't wait
Put it all on the line and the price got paid
I think I'm going blind, all this light I've gotta face
An amount of time, can't let it all go to waste
It's not a stepping stone, these are the choices I made
And I won't let this 'lone
Its in my head I'm in my room, I'm pacing
Its no one could replace you, and no one could replace me
I know the shit you face too, its the same shit that's just facing me
Is this the life I choose? I don't wanna be here
Imma still keep moving, This my leap year
I miss doing all those things
Yeah now my mind is blocking things out
I'm trying not to feel, but I still
End up here back again
I tried again and failed
And I still gotta clean my act a bit
Imma need some more I only have a bit
Don't even know like half of it
I'd usually say im glad I stayed
But this time imma say 'glad I left'
I was getting in a panic stage
Almost lost my mind almost lost my breath
And now I'm jumping on the stage
And off the edge with no regrets
What I'm going through, yeah no one guessed it
What I'm going through I know they test me
When im going through it just got stress me
When I'm done going through it I feel empty
I go missing on the move, I said no don't tempt me
Aint no telling where my head be
Please don't tell me, it's too heavy
Somehow I let this get to me
All in my head all in my room
Nobody can get to see this
All where I've been All that I said
Cant take it back, repeat it
Falling up I'm falling fast
I'm falling way up out the deep end