​unstable tesla coil

I’ve been so sad I don’t know why
Every night I think I cry
Never thought it’d be like this
Just a kid who don’t know shit

Inside my room I will stay
Till my feelings go away
Inside my room I will sit
Drenched sleeves from wrists i've slit

Slurping down the potion
Driving fast im losing focus
None of you know that i'm bogus
Got that magic hocus pocus

Diving too deep i hope i don’t drown
Don’t wanna smile got that permanent frown
Evil all I see whenever I look around
I look into the mirror all i see is a clown

Don’t you feel like evil?
Don’t you
Don’t you feel like evil?
Don’t you feel like evil?
Don’t you
Don’t you feel like evil?

If you ever left me
It’s a bullet I'd be eating, right?
Put an ice pick through my brain
Slit my wrists out in the rain

Hang myself from the nearеst tree
Willows cry and hang like me
Put my fucking head in thе dirt
Won’t breathe until it fucking hurts

Said my darkest fears in what i thought to be our confidence
Ran and told all your friends that what I say isn’t making sense
Wrote a note to you every single day for a lifetime
Now I have just one more question: do I look like I am fine?

Sit alone in my home and i got my eyes closed
Check my phone never known living in the dead zone
Eat my words never heard and i’ll finally go home
Gimme space and gimme time i just wanna be alone

I lost my way i'm trapped inside feeling all these walls again
Fuck this maze in a daze i don’t know the place i’ve been
Bellyache, make me squirm, i know that you’re listening
Fuck the noise, fuck the sound, to my voice you’ll listen in

I don’t even know who the fuck i am anymore