...so why do i feel sorry?

…so why do I feel sorry?
For something that you did to me?
I just wanted to breathe
But here we are again

So I stare at the ocean
Contemplate throwing myself in
Feeling no emotions
I find it hard to think you knew me at all

The last 10 months have sucked
But really I don’t give a fuck
I’m stuck inside
I‘m just living life
I just wanna die
But can’t say it yet

December comes again
Another winter to call me a friend
Think I really need some help
I just wanna cry out loud

So I’ll stare at the ocean
Contemplatе throwing myself in
Feeling no emotions
I find it hard to think you knew mе at all