Addictions

Drugs, alcohol, food or sports
Video games or even sex
Sometimes you have to grip to something
To feel alive
I'm not telling you that it's a crime
I know that rush of dopamine too well myself
I'm not telling you that it's fine
Addictions can so easily ruin someone's perfect life
I've never tried drugs or drinking
because I know I'm very prone to sinking
Sweet relief of oblivion
The truth is that you're losing yourself
I'm not telling you that you should lie
Release your heart's silent sorrows and breathe
I'm not telling you that it's a shame
It's already such a step to admit that you
Are addicted
Life can be so very sad
From time to time I will feel alive
Only with a growling empty stomach
Or when I do a thousand jumping jacks
Oh how I wish I could give it up
Says the reasonable part of me
But really I'm so fucked up
That I don't want to not experience this ephemeral harmony
I'm not telling that it's a crime
I know how sometimes you just need to feel something (anything)
And yes I know I'm destroying my body and my mind
But god do I wish I could just sink deeper
Into the addiction