All the Weight

Carrying all the weight
Further beneath
Take a step back
‘Cause I don’t know
How I will react
Party is over
Back to normal
Defenses down
Pleasure out
I might throw myself down to the floor
But at least I have learnt to ignore sharp edges
Re…
Up…
Ta…
Ke…
Re…
Uptake
Going up
Only means
It’s about to
Jump off
Further beneath
So leave me alone
This will last for hours
I have enough
With my own drama
I don't want
To hurt you anymore
Let me carry
All the weight of this trauma
Things
Will
Be right where
We left them
Things
Will stay
Quiet in their place
I Would love
That you knew
What I’m talking about
But I would never
Wish it
To anyone
It
Has
Been demonstrated
There is proof
That through gray
See the ones close to the roof
I’m afraid of testing my
Senses
I might never feel again
I might never get out of bed