Determinist

Well of course I failed
What did you expect?
It's been so long since I took a deep breath
Tension kept me standing up straight
Finally collapsed under all of this weight

I refuse to be lived through vicariously
Expectations built out of bad memories

I'd honestly prefer to be a failure of my own design
I think you know I'd rather be the architect of my own demise
I won't spend another second in this pantomime
I will drag myself out of here
I feel the lifeline

It's been a long tall tale, of your success
A false flag prince in the shadow of death
All you need to do is exist
Born with your name at the top of the list

I refuse to be lived through vicariously
Cut the strings and you'll begin to really see

I'd honestly prefer to be a failure of my own design
I think you know I'd rather be the architect of my own demise
I won't spend another second in this pantomime
I will drag myself out of here
I feel the lifeline

Like a twist of knowledge we have opened up a door that can't be closed
And unbeknownst to us our minds were made up many years ago
And i don't feel the way I used to when I was looking up to you
Maybe now I'm looking down

I'd honestly prefer to be a failure of my own design
I think you know I'd rather be the architect of my own demise
I won't spend another second in this pantomime
I will drag myself out of here
I feel the lifeline
I feel the lifeline