Wailing Wall

You saw my demons and you saw my dreams
You saw me at my weakest when I lost and grieved
U saw the scars I hid far beneath my soul
You saw the sacrifices made to achieve my goals
Doing it on my own got ignored and stoned
From Greenbelt, back and forth to Normanstone
When I’d head home, there’s be a hole inside me, "emptiness"
I tried to get out of it, there was dark force preventing it
Trying hard to snap out of it, I was lost
Alcohol bottles on the floor and overalls
A strange lady in my bed sleeping my chest
Feeling comfortable and I couldn’t even tell u where we met
And I can’t fall asleep the devil keeping me up
Like I’m wasting my potential the feelings eating me up
Thinking about my parents what they did to get me here
The stress was too much for them there was obstacles everywhere
My sister was gone, nobody knew where she went
She upped and left, the tension at the crib was like death
They had to split up they told me u can stay or u can leave
I chose to stay I didn’t wanna go back overseas
Cause America to me, It was like the greatest gift
Whatever came up, I would laugh it off like Jadakiss
And brush it off like my heart was made of bricks
Rewind the story from the ending where I finally made it rich
My Rocket launched and it crashed and burned
I'm a get back up a hundred times
This week kicked in me in the ass I learned
I'm a get back up a hundred times
As long as the sunshine will light up the sky
I'm a do what I'm here for I don't gotta ask why
Every minute is a minute closer till I die
Take time to cherish everything, take it in stride
Life live royal my oil is CBD
Feeling something like Broly in DBZ
Like I’m holding something back and if I don’t
It’ll cause an impact, I can’t control my stats
That’s no cap was almost dead broke recently
Almost lost my apartment that’s whole piece of me
But I guess it’s just another attachment I have
And ya perception of me might not add up to facts
Sardine diet, hummus and rice cakes
Going half on metro cards, life in the Tri-state
Donate some clothes and eBay some more
OT cause in New York’s hard to get paid for shows
And that’s to say, when u think I’m doing so grand
Never base someone’s life for what they posting on the gram
Still I’m glad, I dug myself out and seeing light again
I swallowed that pill and that lesson was a vitamin
Cause this life’ll test ya self belief and ya resolve
Are you only playing with it or down with the cause?
For everything you gain there’s a cost
And I found infinite abundance when I tap in the source
I ain’t done looking back from I came from
Book I can’t stop reading, I let the page run
So as you listen to this now pat on yourself on the back
Cause you made it this far and there’s no turning back
My Rocket launched and it crashed and burned
I'm a get back up a hundred times
This week kicked in me in the ass I learned
I'm a get back up a hundred times
As long as the sunshine will light up the sky
I'm a do what I'm here for I don't gotta ask why
Every minute is a minute closer till I die
Take time to cherish everything, take it in stride