Not Ready
Verse 1
Let's just be honest, Jesus I'm a mess
Can't seem to fill this void of emptiness
My bills are paid. But I'm still stressed
I need you, I need you
Trying to medicate and dull the pain
Can't hush these voices in my brain
singing songs to silence sounds of shame
I need you, I need you
Prechorus
But if I tell the truth
I'm so afraid of truth
But I know it
And you know it
Chorus
I know I need to pray
But I don’t how to say
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change
I want to trust in you
But if I told the truth
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change
Verse 2
Stuck in between what was and what could be
I'm so afraid to lose the image they see
I don’t even know what’s happening to me
I need you, I need you
Prechorus
But when I face the facts
My feelings aren't facts
And I know it
Yes I know it
Chorus
I know I need to pray
But I don’t how to say
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change
I want to trust in you
But if I told the truth
I’m not ready
I’m not ready to change
Bridge
Sometimes I feel like I
Like I gotta hide
I just don’t get why you’d stay with me
Cuz my faith and my trust are wavering, wavering
Maybe it’s all my pride
Its hard to surrender when I’ve been pretending to have it together
But I feel like my world is falling apart
Just need a minute, just a second to catch up
I Know I’m not finished, I just can’t seem to get up
Help me remember, all of the plans we made
When we were both on the same page
On the same page