From This Place

There's a hole where you used to be
My other half is gone
You've left me with these thoughts
Thoughts so dark
I don't recognize the thing in the mirror
Twisted, contorted, ugly
Without you, I'm not me
I slip the belt around my neck
"What am I doing?"
"What have I done?"
I don't want to be gone
I don't want you to be gone
I want you to be here
Just like how you were
From this place, my little giant mountain, I call to you
I call your name, but my voice fades
This mountain man had it all
I turn my face to the pale moon
A tear rolls down my face
Who knew it all could be gone so easily?
You didn't even reach out when you found out what I had done
Do you even care?
Was a year and a half all for nothing?
I don't want anything else
I want you
But I can't have you
You won't talk to me
You're cut off from me
And I am a memory
My roots dig in
Maybe this mountain can be my home
From this place, I'll watch as you move on
I'll watch as you find someone else
You probably already have
I was just a stepping stone for you
A first love so fleeting in the grand scale of it all
My skin hardens
My roots go deeper
I think I'll stay on this cold, ugly mountain
With only the moon to keep me company