Mom

Hi
It's been a while since we talked
I'm doing alright what's up with y'all
That's good to hear, I hope I can visit this fall
I wish I could say this aloud
The medication's not working, I'm sorry mom
I know you wanna hear: there's nothing wrong
But I don't wanna lie to you
Even that it hurts to tell you the truth
And you don't even take it too good
But let's move on
What's your kid been up to
Well nothing much
A bit of work and all such
Yeah I'm working a lot
I guess it's worth it if not
Something to do while I'm missing you
And distract me too
Mom
Don't know how to say this all
There is nowhere you went wrong
You're the best that I could ask for
Mom
Why did I grow up so wrong
Even after all you've done
You're the best that I could ask for
And mom I don't know if you wanna hear this all
But this is the way I've been feeling for way too long
This is the thing that kept me up late, it feels so wrong
Didn't wanna get up to face you and tell you how I feel I'm gone
And now you know something's wrong 'cos I told you this a while ago
But I left somethings out to not hurt you no more
Didn't wanna do it but don't wanna let you down
I'm trying my best to get better and get rest, and get settled in my head
And I know you love me and want the best for me
But this is the best I can hope to see
Mom
Don't know how to say this all
There is nowhere you went wrong
You're the best that I could ask for
Mom
Why did I grow up so wrong
Even after all you've done
You're the best that I could ask for
Mom
Don't know how to say this all
There is nowhere you went wrong
You're the best that I could ask for
And I know you hear me, but I feel you don't really listen
I'm actually fearing that there's something missing
Maybe it's just a feeling or maybe my brain is different
And if you hear this then please just listen