Positive
Make me, make me sweat
Til I'm wet, til I'm dry
But then wipe this tear from my eye
Haven't even felt this warm in a long time
Even out in the bright sunshine
In a lifetime of springtimes
I fall into your arms
With my heart pumpin' on
Like a bubblin' dub track
Like a garlicy hot tongue and lip smack
I did some contemplation
Before we got down to this consecration
Or maybe baby something in your kiss said
It was an impetous
For me to rethink this
If I love you
Then I better get tested
Make sure we are protected
I walk through the park
Dressed like a question mark
Hark!
I hear my memory bark
In the back of my brain,
Makn' me insane...
...like cocaine
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But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
How'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive?
Is it gonna be a negative?
But how'm I gonna live my life if I'm positive?
Dawned on me, it seemed to me
That this is unusual scenery
This red light greenery
Make me feel kinda dreamery
Thinkin' how I used to be
Arrive at the clinic
And walk through the front door
I take a nervous number
Then I'm thinkin' some more
About all the time
That I neglected
Makin sure that
I was protected
They took my blood
With an anonymous number
Two weeks waitin' wonderin'
I shoulda done this a long time ago
A lot of excuses why I couldn't go
I know these things and these things I must know
'cause it's better to know than to not know!
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I go home to kick it
In my apartment
I try to give myself
A risk assessment
The wait is what can really annoy ya
Every single day is more paranoya
I'm readin' about how it gets transmitted
Some behavior I must admit it
With who I slept with, and who they slept with,
Who they, who they, who they slept with
When I think about life and immortality
What's the first thing I do if I'm H.I.V
I have a cry and tell my mother
Get on the phone and call my past lovers
I never thought about infectin' anotha
The times that I said "Hmmm? Don't bother."
Was it really all that magic?
The times I didn't use a prophalactic
Would my whole life have to change?
Or my whole life remained the same?
Sometimes it makes me wanna shout!
All these things too hard to think about
A day to laugh, a day to cry
A day to live and a day to die
'til I find out, I may wonder
But I'm not gonna live my life six feet under
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