Lost in My Pain

Why do you run and hide, it's cause I'm a monster
That's why I ponder, I ruined my respect and honor
I ponder at my past, cause it went by so fast
I don't like to talk about it, there's some things I don't like to admit

Why am I here? I only cause pain to the one's I hold dear
I just wanna disappear, you might catch me shed a tear
There's only one thing I fear, being left behind
I've changed a lot, including my state of mind

Why do you run and hide, it's cause I'm a monster
That's why I ponder, I ruined my respect and honor
I ponder at my past, cause it went by so fast
I don't like to talk about it, there's some things I don't like to admit

All I cause is pain, sometimes I just stare at the rain
Being lost in my pain, mentally scarring my brain
I'm being held down with a chain, it's kinda hard to explain
I just have to keep this smile on my face, so I can hide my disgrace

Why do you run and hide, it's cause I'm a monster
That's why I ponder, I ruined my respect and honor
I ponder at my past, cause it went by so fast
I don't like to talk about it, there's some things I don't like to admit