If Only You Knew

Perfection is, an idea
I’m not perfect
I’m only human
I remember when i was young i had a big dream
To become a mogul
To become a huge star I’d say to myself someday i be global
I remember, i never fit in with the other kids so rap became my “go to”
Not really that social let alone put the world on my shoulders and stay hopeful
Never had anything come with ease
I never wanted to see my dad falling on his knees
Somedays i still cry in the middle of the night for no reasons
And after all i been through i still try to seez the storm and fake a smile to people
Never really ready so i build them walls so they can’t see through
Found a way to escape reality tryna see where this path leads to
Found god and the angels to send those pleads to
Found music as a get away to make ends meet too
Hoping to meet the expectations that you put
If only you knew that i also cry
And I’m just human and i break down sometimes
If only you knew all the flaws i hide
I’ll close my eyes and let you decide
Sometimes i feel a grib on my neck, like i can’t breath
Feel like i wanna get out of my body and break free
Somedays i wish i can forget everything and start all over again
But im afraid to forget those that i love and
I sit back and reflect on the years that flew by
Feels like yesterday was 2010 now it just flew by
And i miss your presence but as life moves on i keep on learning lessons
And as i grow older everyday i appreciate my Blessings
Cause i got to learn to cherish those that are around
Got to learn to fight those demons that keep my wings tied to the ground
And when i listen to this one day i hope I’ll be the person that i always wanted to be
Cause, i don’t wanna fail in the public eye
And i don’t wanna be another person with a normal life
So as long as I’m living imma keep on trying
But I’m only human so don’t blame me if i breath
If only you knew that i also cry
And I’m just human and i break down sometimes
If only you knew all the flaws i hide
I’ll close my eyes and let you decide
If only you knew that i also cry
And I’m just human and i break down sometimes
If only you knew all the flaws i hide
I’ll close my eyes and let you decide
And I’m only human
So don’t blame me if i breath
If i breath