no one will ever know that you are my home

I see you laughing
Over all the heads
Of everybody else
And you feel so far away
When I'm standing close to you
My body's tense
Thoughts are racing
Everything focused on you

And I don't care
I just want you to suffer
That's what I tell myself
When you're in my thoughts, yeah
Again and again
But
There doesn't seem to be a remedy
Your eyes and your jokes
Can't get you out of my memory
Just wanna feel you close

No one will ever know
No one will ever know
I'll never let this side show
I'll never let this side show

Go home for christmas
Hating every second in that cold Empty house
Drink myself numb every night
Just wanna get you out of my Mind

I know I'm in the wrong
I know that I'm at fault
And I wish that I could change
But there's a wall in my way

That wall that builds up even Higher
Every day, every time
Every time I say...

...Oh, I don't care
I just want you to suffer
That's what I tell myself
When you're in my thoughts, Yeah
Again and again
But
There doesn't seem to be a Remedy
Your eyes and your jokes
Can't get you out of my memory
Just wanna feel you close

No one will ever know
No one will ever know
I'll never let this side show

And you will never know
No, I'll never let you know
Cause I'm not good enough to Hold
To be held by someone like you

No one will ever know
Nobody'll ever know
That you are my home