Jitters

I always get jitters even when I'm not that nervous
It's like all the butterflies are mandatory at this point
I go from my safest space to a crowd of unfamiliar faces
Should i have brought some cash to throw out into all those eyes on me?
It's already so vulnerable just me and my guitar
Imagine asking me to take it all around the world
I went to a live show last week, no one seemed to like it all that much
I wonder if go just to feel like I'm a part of something bigger than me?
Maybe if there's movement
Maybe if they mosh
I just sing my sad songs
Watch 'em punch the air
Maybe if there's dancing
When I try to sing
Maybe if I close my eyes
Maybe if I don't think