Welcome

I’m blue; discouraged and downhearted
Cantering rhythms, you hear the sound of my soul pounding
Been through a bitter divorce with sobriety
The Scotch is taking out the nerves not the anxiety
The blunts no longer hit the same
I could smoke away a backyard of ganja and still anguish the same
One day at a time, Syn says
Speaking in restraint, we avoid the D word
Ever felt like happiness is a restricted function?
My mind is where the dark comes to hide from the darkness
Dеar world, you’re so heartless
Starting to feel likе every verse I line will prolly be my final passage
As I transition into morgue state, tears on my old face
Teardrops on the page I inscribe this cold verse
I’ve seen my own hearse, it’s a chariot of fire
Dragging me out of hell- a figment of my desire
No lifeboats on this sinking ship
I got a third-hand spirit, was born feeling sick
Worse still, thermodynamics would never convert my energy
Into anything else but lamentations and elegies
So every morning, I’m worshipping the porcelain god
Katzenjammers from last night, I’ve been sleeping in gourds
In search for motivation to live
Or end up like my cousin whom I never got to grieve
R.I.P
Heaven said, “Welcome”