I Need Some Help

Trying to figure out this life
Another bottle down
Damn my head so low
I'm trying to get it off the ground
It's one step forward and two steps back I think I lost myself
I keep getting turned around
I think I need some help
I'm trying to get back on the road
I'm trying to get back in the zone
I'm trying to get back at the chick that
That was acting like this ain't gon damage my soul
So now I sit back and I sip
Drink after drink to forget where I been
Black out ask how life got turned round
I'm upside down can't feel shit
Then I wake up in the morning
And everything rushes back in
I feel too much it's all cooped up
It breaks out and spins my head
Stand up but I can't balance in
The place that I'm at so the ground it is
The silence right before your face meets the floor
Is the place I adore wish that I could live in
That moment forever but my body hits the floor and I snap back out of it
Back to reality damn
Looks like I'm back here again
Trying to figure out this life
Another bottle down
Damn my head so low
I'm trying to get it off the ground
It's one step forward and two steps back I think I lost myself
I keep getting turned around
I think I need some help
Which ways up, or which ways down
Either way I lost direction now
I'm just out here trying to figure out
How to ditch the bottle and accept myself
Start the journey but it's early on
Can't help but to look back the whole time
Temptations coming and I see it man
A large part of me wants it to tag along
Build a new relationship where
I don't need them and we can just be friends
Hang out every once in awhile
And when they aren't there I'll be myself again
I don't need help with this
See I'm different now and I can handle it
One sip turns into another the bottles gone
Damn and I'm back in it quick
Trapped in a cycle of acting like it's
Not a big deal so I ease in a bit
Thinking that this time I'll be alright
There I go fallin off the deep end again
And again and again
Yeah
Where'm I at, I just can't, lift my head
Damn
I swear, I thought, we were friends
Yeah
I'll never, do this, again
Damn
Trying to figure out this life
Another bottle down
Damn my head so low
I'm trying to get it off the ground
It's one step forward and two steps back I think I lost myself
I keep getting turned around
I think I need some help