Anymore

In a fantasy that I’d been hunting
Couldn’t live it after all
You imagined me as I always wanted
I tried, I couldn’t be that anymore

It’s a memory, the time escapes me
Wish I’d said it at all
Just surrendering to love, it’s funny
I guess it doesn’t matter anymore

Couldn’t laugh, couldn’t cry
Could barely find the time
To live at all, to get by
Just agonise
I couldn’t ask, I wouldn’t pry
A deafening desire
To be wanted, to be kind
To last a night at all

Did I actually think I’d forget you?
I’ve no ability to fall out of love -
It was realer now that time had shed it
And it tries, it makеs me miss it even morе