What If

What if?
I never get my feet on the concrete
What if?
I never get blood back in my heartbeat
Is it obvious?
That I'm floating toward an exit?
Cause I'm always second guessing if its obvious
That every question is an answer
To an aswer needing questions
And now
I'm in the backgrond
Of my own image
Where no one else can see me
I pain myself there
So no ones else cares
To see me leave my body
As soon as I feel better, start to see some better weather
The cloud roll in and my thoughts they all go-
What if?
I never get my feet on the concrete
What if?
I never get blood back in my heartbeat
What if I'm all alone in my problems?
What if its only me?
What if?
I never finds
Some kind of gravity

Snap

Back into myself
I should get some help
What the hells been taking me so long
Selling all my shit
Just pay the rent
There's no affording this
So typically
I'm in the background
Of my owm image
Where no one else can see me
I paint myself there
So that they don't stare or throw a pity party
What if?
I never get my feet on the concrete
What if?
I never get blood back in my heartbeat
What if I'm all alone in my problems?
What if its only me?
What if?
I never find
Some kinda gravity

Houston, anybody read?
I'm floating through the farkness
Dying with my darknest thoughts
Silence
No ones listening
No one says a thing
And as I float away I feed the core belief
What if I'm this?
What if I'm that?
What if I've gone crazy and there aint no going back now?
What if I'm sick?
What if I've gone mad?
What if? What if?
What if?
I never get my feet on the concrete
What if?
I never get blood back in my heartbeat
What if I'm all alone in my problems?
What if its only me?
What if?
I never find
Some kind of gravity