Messed Up

We have conversations
I have conversations with myself
With someone else

Staring into nothing
Staring out at something
I'm not there
I'm everywhere

And when I go back
Back to the start
First time feels so far away
Far away

And I'm just a little messed up
I'm a little out of my head
Looks like I get along fine
But most of the time I'm just scared
I'm just a little messed up
I think that that's okay
I'm just a little messed up
I'm just a little messed up

You have expectations
I have expectations every night
All the time
Better off pretending
Better to be spending time alone
Without my phone

And when I go back
Back to the start
Hindsight feels so far away
Far away

I'm just a little messed up
I'm a little out of my head
Looks like I get along fine
But most of the time I'm just scared
I'm just a little messed up
I think that that's okay
I'm just a little messed up
I'm just a little messed up

And when I go back
Back to the start
First time feels so far away
Far away
Go back back to the start
Hindsight feels so far away
Far away

I'm just a little messed up
I'm a little out of my head
Looks like I get along fine
But most of the time I'm just scared
I'm just a little messed up
And I think that that's okay
I'm just a little messed up
I'm just a little messed up

I'm just a little messed up
I'm a little out of my head
Looks like I'm doing just fine
But most of the time I'm just scared
I'm just a little messed up
And I think that that's okay
I'm just a little messed up
I'm just a little messed up