Good As It Gets

I'm not who I used to be
I wouldn't know that guy if he was standing in front of me
I've got this tendency
Just leave it up to me to be sad in paradise

I've got a good heart
But I fuck it up for the art
Had a good life
But could never really see that
It got so bad, looking for love in the trash
If I had it wouldn't know how to keep it

Well maybe I’m a mess
And maybe I’m depressed
And maybe I’ll just find out who I am
And I won't like who it is
And I’m a wreck
I do it for the sex
And maybe I gotta realize,
This is as good as it gets

I try to retrace my steps
Maybe I’ll find where it all went wrong
But I haven't yet
Cashing another check
Yeah I'm spending all my money
Just trying to forget

I've got a good heart
But sometimes I’m a little dark
Had a good life
But I could never really see that
It got so bad, looking for love in the trash
If I had it I wouldn't know how to keep it

Well maybe I’m a mess
I think that I’m depressed
sometimes it’s the best that I can do to just get out of my bed
I’m still a wreck
the last time I checked
and maybe I just gotta realize.