Been Thru

KimJ with the heat j West Beats
I ain't the bad guy
Everybody just tellin' me
You gotta blame them people
You gotta be able to peep
The fake smiles and handshakes
'Cause that first time you show
'em you trust 'em, they take advantage

I got issues if nobody 'round me
Who I'm 'posed to vent to?
I'm losing all my loved ones, I miss you
Make it a letter for my
Niggas in the pen' too (Locked up)
And I hope you got that lil'
Money that I sent you we had it hard
Make it happen when the rent due
Forever scarred
These drugs fuckin' up my mental
Go all around the world for you, baby
If it's meant to i ain't just rappin'
Rather talk about some shit that
I done been through

Yeah, I sin, but I repent too
Move like the wind do
Send them vultures through your whole crew
Niggas get put in coffins when they
Mouthin' like them hoes do
And we ain't with the talking
We tryna pull up and show you
And I know when the fame come
Everybody gon' be actin' like they know you
All for some money
You ain't keep shit a hundred
Like you was 'posed to
Thought I could trust you
That's why I showed you half
The shit I showed you
I'm the nigga you're close to
Too real to expose you
Got me feeling like what I do to
Myself? Been actin' new with myself
Not staying true to myself
Feel like I'm losing myself i'm taking meds
Whole time I'm abusing myself
Lil' givin' ass nigga, only using myself

I got issues if nobody 'round me
Who I'm 'posed to vent to?
I'm losing all my loved ones, I miss you
Make it a letter for my
Niggas in the pen' too (Locked up)
And I hope you got that lil'
Money that I sent you we had it hard
Make it happen when the rent due
Forever scarred
These drugs fuckin' up my mental
Go all around the world for you, baby
If it's meant to i ain't just rappin'
Rather talk about some shit that
I done been through

These days, gotta watch the ones that
You callin' your family
It be the ones you call your dawgs
Don't wanna see you win Grammys
I told Luwhop fuckin' with bottle
Hate the wet panoramics
Two different cups, two different drugs
I'm on this codeine and Xanax
Lu'll whip that Glock out for Lil
Sosa like they don't understand him
I want to sip the purple potion
I'm the grandson of granny
I left my feelings in the ocean
On South Beach in Miami
Fast forward my life, but in slow motion
Life been goin' how I planned it
But, nigga, I'ma shoot for myself
Won't help me count it
But you wanna spend these blues with myself
Climbing the highest mountain
I ain't have no shoes for myself
My youngins, they wear blue when they step

I got issues if nobody 'round me
Who I'm 'posed to vent to?
I'm losing all my loved ones, I miss you
Make it a letter for my
Niggas in the pen' too (Locked up)
And I hope you got that lil'
Money that I sent you we had it hard
Make it happen when the rent due
Forever scarred
These drugs fuckin' up my mental
Go all around the world for you, baby
If it's meant to i ain't just rappin'
Rather talk about some shit that
I done been through