​not ok but its ok

I found peace and comfort
In sharing our existence
I found satisfaction
Just knowing you were listening
I found something special
I tried to make it last yet my head hurt me
It pushed into the past
I tried to plead my sorry
But I can not express
The way this got me feeling
I had to just digress
I don't wanna be here no more
I'm trapped in my head
I'm trapped in my thoughts
I just wanna be free
I won't have to run away
I won't have to see your face
I won't have to lead astray
I won't have to find my place
I won't have to feel your skin
I won't have a life to live
I won't have to be afraid
I don't need to be okay
Everything seems to go fast
Yet here I am, still in the past
Trying to find just something more
Than what I had with you before