Anima Vestra

Why am I so anxious
Emptiness is filling me
My heart's beating out my chest
Get me a doctor
I've dug this hole as deep as I could
I won't rely on you to save me
Just turn away and move on
I've become a fucking monster

My eyes are open
All I see is my damnation

Can't go out this way
I won't go out this way
But God I'll be honest, the emptiness is killing me

I pretend I'm okay everyday just to hurt you less
I can't let you see that I am a fucking mess

The thing I love most hurts me
I fear the pain of letting go
I'm fucking suffocating
I can't do this alone
God I'm sorry for turning away
If you can hear
I know I said I would be stronger

My lungs are collapsing
Oh fuck
My eyes are open
All I see is my damnation

Can't go out this way
I won't go out this way
But God I'll be honest the emptiness is killing me

If I leave, I'll hurt those I love
So, I'll try again to get up
Part of me doesn't care
What if this is the only way out
Fuck this

Fuck these thoughts