Dreaming in a Wasteland

Self love, and self harm
A duality so damning yea we knew it from the start
Cause' I was born here, so I must die here
Or maybe I should leave so I don't waste away my life

A state of fleeting a state of leaving
Carolina beach homes so alluring and deceiving
It's suicidal because this is vital
So please just let me stay and get my shit straight for awhile

New loves, new jobs, new world
But we can't get ahead
We're taking life by the throat til it chokes
Living at our parents' places

Same bed, same friends same car
It keeps my head on straight

I can't be the one that has shut the light off

Enter a comfortable culture where you're encouraged to dream
As long as life's in order by the time that you're 18
Downplay, all the pressures that be
And bury every horrible thought you conceive

What
I'd Give
To never
Feel
All these expectations that seem to interfere
Crushing
My chest
And now I can't catch my breath
to protest

New loves, new jobs, new world
But we can't get ahead
We're taking life by the throat til it chokes
Living at our parents' places

Same bed, same friends, same car
It keeps my head on straight

I can't be the one to shut the light off

What about this makes you think you know
that all your needed answers will soon start to show
If you reset your life, you just pick up and leave
That's a fictional prospect to me, don't you see?

I'm at the throat of existence with the world in my hands
I'm living thousands of lives dreaming in a wasteland
my door opens I see your rope end
Forever frozen in time watching sands fall