Alone

I been living where the sun don’t shine
So ain’t no wonder why my feet stay cold
I feel like I ain’t on earth sometimes
I get higher when I feel my lows  

Too many nights that I been locked inside the devil’s chamber
I wish I knew before the pitfalls that this journey came with
A n**** tired, too often quiet 
I never tell no one else so it eats me up from inside
Too many talks with people as shallow as a lagoon
So I retreat deeper into myself to heal my wounds 
It ain’t working, I think I need a new regimen
Tired of feeling envy towards rappers I know I’m better than 
Pretentious at my core but I’m humble on the surface 
Go to hell’s flea market my heart will be up for purchase
My pace is always urgent and my pen is always fervent 
But I stay stuck in place cause it ain’t good if it ain't perfect 
I get props like oh you poppin’ on the gram n****
That don’t mean shit, I’m still living with my grams n****
At my uncle's, and I know that he believes in me 
Which makes the thought of letting him down eat at me
Great value sweatpants, recordings at the basement 
Just me and myself telling I to be patient
I hide in my paintings, I fly when I daydream 
I’m low but I can’t quit this high that I’m chasing 
I get props like yo my n**** that’s a great tune
But he never played your song so he played you
All for appearances, we playing characters
The world is simply a stage that I’ve become embarrassed of 
Ain’t no wifey on the horizon so I sleep alone
Ain’t no warmth left in my body so my pillow’s cold
I’m the type to still look back when I’m moving forward 
My regrets leave me in anguish like a figure four 
I keep asking is the dream worth living for 
I don’t know but I’m running out of time 
They disregard all the art I design 
No wonder Van Gogh lost his mind 

I don’t know if I can last I’m too alone out here
It’s cold out here, I can't face the woes I fear 
My dreams are in rigor mortis, my hope became an orphan 
Unwanted by my soul cause optimism is torture 
I’m way too alone, all I do is cry about it 
They be asking if I’m fine all I do is lie about it 
All alone in the globe I can’t even find my balance 
I can’t even find my balance n****

I been living where the sun don’t shine (don’t shine)
So ain’t no wonder why my feet stay cold (stay cold)
I feel like I ain’t on earth sometimes (sometimes)
I get higher when I feel my lows (my lows)

I been living where the sun don’t shine (don’t shine)
So ain’t no wonder why my feet stay cold (stay cold)
I feel like I ain’t on earth sometimes (yeah, yeah)
I get higher when I feel my lows (my lows)

My lows, my lows