NO MAN'S LAND (feat. Mariah Michelle)

This is no man's land
Where I plant my feet in the sand
As tidal waves seek to crush all of my plans
I no longer can, but maybe I will
The glass is half empty, I gave it a spill
I landed the job and i'm doing it well
Seems like Satan is casting some spell
And calling my tells
I'm standing outside and ringing the bell
Give me a drink of living water from Samaria's well
I am a prisoner locked in this cell
But i'm giving you bars
Can you not tell
Listen
To the fall of a mind that borderline tried
A disordered mind of Dr. Jeckel and Mr. Hyde
Going down a haunted slide and losing the child inside
That would beg the world, yeah, just for a smile
Slowly i've grown, and slowly i've seen
The world ain't even close to that which it seems
Lucidly i dream, i'm in between the two
Kinda like Neo if stuck in the blue
My fear of abandonment has me abandoning you
I'm telling the truth
That this isn't new
You look at me and say "this isn't you"
Your words piercing my heart
Just like your eyes will always do
Is this a sign that maybe we're through
I'm not acting, i'm really a fool
Who's ready to lose
Not only life, but all of you too
All of you, too
Entertaining thoughts that only get worse
Hence i'm writing these words
It seems like some curse
The Spirit is willing, my flesh is weak
It really does hurt when I'm claiming defeat
I really do see, that life isn't fair
So maybe it's death that I need
Clearly no clarity
Rabbit holes and adamant hopes
Watch me deplete
All of the words that I preached
Slowly they fade
Along with this person in me
My prayerful hands are bleeding
I'm blindly leading myself ahead
I'm losing my breath
With every step
Here is the depth of choosing
Here is the depth of choosing
Life or death, yeah, life or death
I'm not ready to lose
I'm not ready to lose
I'm not ready to lose you
To lose you
I'm not ready to lose
I'm not ready to lose
I'm not ready to lose you
To lose you