6

In my unmade bed
With the screen I never left
Is this all I could want
Is this all 21 is
All my texts unread
And a cup of comparison
Cause I need the caffeine
And it's funny that she never did

Cause my 6 year old self didn't cry
About the size of my waist or my nose or my thighs
And she never ran out of time in her eyes

I wish that I could call her right now
And get advice on this hell
Cause she would've pulled me out by now
And if I really had to choose
Me or her, I'd lose
Cause she believed in me more than I do

All the nights I should've slept
But couldn't keep my hands to myself
They were too busy scrolling
Till Five in the morning
Till I have nothing left

And I really don't care what the mirror shows me
When my eyes are saying they don't even know me
Cause now I'm jealous of the younger me
And she don't have to pay for therapy

I wish that I could call her right now
And get advice on this hell
Cause she would've pulled me out by now
And if I really had to choose
Me or her, I'd lose
Cause she believed in me more than I do

Cause my 9 year old self didn't cry
About eating or breathing or songs she can't write
And she never hated the brown in her eyes
And she never waited to run out of time

Cause my six year old self didn't cry
About the size of my waist or my nose or my thighs
And she never ran out of time in her eyes

I wish that I could call her right now
And get advice on this hell
Cause she would've pulled me out by now
And if i really had to choose
Me or her, I'd lose
Cause she believed in me more than I do

If I called her out
Would she pick up now