Heavy

I feel it in my bones
Blood runs cold
It haunts me
It’s a whisper in the air
The thoughts that I can’t share
It’s heavy

I define myself through the view of someone else
Will I ever be enough?

It’s the work of my own hands
Sinking in quicksand
The fight pulls me deeper
I’m scared of my own voice
I’m deafened by the noise
Of words I’ve left unspoken

We all hide behind the secrets in our mind,
Save it for another time

There are windows,
light from the outside
I locked myself inside, thought that I was safe
But demons feed on the feeling,
My ceiling is shrinking, trapped in this place
Now I’m someone I can’t escape

Hanging by a thread,
I’m unravelling in my head
Looking for a foothold
Time is running low
Backfire from the blow
Of the lies that silence taught me

Found the key to break out, but I’m drowning in the doubt
That there’s no one left to save

There are windows,
light from the outside
I locked myself inside, thought that I was safe
But demons feed on the feeling,
My ceiling is shrinking, trapped in this place
Now I’m someone I can’t escape

© Mckenna Flaherty, Jared Anderson 2017