Idea of You

I met you one night it was snowing outside
I held ur hand so you could hold it real tight
But i didn't really know you
Took a chance in faith now I'm all blue
All there's left is the pain i put myself through
Now I know i was in love with the idea of you
Wish i could just brush it off
Like i always do
But i cant hide from the tears
It's been days and weeks a year
Sometimes i wish i could disappear
We'd talk for hours
Til it's the break of day
The night was ours to spend away
But you never gave me flowers
The voice in my head is getting louder
I should've never given you my power
Now I know i was in love with the idea of you
Wish i could just brush it off
Like i always do
But i can't hide from the tears
It's been days and weeks a year
Sometimes i wish i could disappear
Now I know I was in love with the idea of you
You would never have left me
If you were really true
Maybe it's time to face my fears
Baby i don't need you near
Tell me if you were ever really here
Now I see it all so clear
You'll never be with me
You were my biggest fear
Now I'm finally free