Grubby
Up the stairwell: chip-fat grey and
London green with damp
Out on the fifth floor
Where the wind grips your jaw
And holds you in it's clamp
There's a red door, bordered by mottled glass
And inside a lighted lamp
Pious lives here
Pious is tired but can't sleep
She twitches wired
She lies beside a sleeping body
A girl she barely knows
She met her in the pub
And it went the way it goes
The girl's name is Rose
But Pious is lovesick for her Thorn
She left her in the summer
And since then Pious can't get warm
She's carried her, stuck in her side
Since the day that she was born
She dreamed of her and knew her shape
Long before she saw her form
Well, it's 4: 18, and Pious
Has been staring at the blinds for hours
She tells herself it's all her fault
She doesn't love she just devours
Can't sleep so much to do
Tryna get closer to you
And you're so far away
Tryna get hold of what's true
And what's true isn't true when it's day
Tell me, how can I sleep? Got so much to do
I'm trying to get closer to you
And you're so far away
All that I say and I do are
Things that you do and you say
How come I'm becoming the one
That I'm running from, hunted by?
Slurring my words in the pub
Feeling nervous and overexcited
Arms round the waist of a girl who
Might make it alright for a night
Yeah, she tears me to pieces
Then I lie beside her, awake while she sleeps
And I feel much closer to you than
I felt when you were still here
Spill beer till you reappear
I'm thinking of you
And the things you do to me
I'm thinking of you
And the things you do to me
Pain in my liver oK
Shame so much shame can't bear my frame
Can't bear your name oK
Can't bear this game let's play
New rules old rituals
Guilt trip heartstrings snap
Want to, can't go back too much
Not enough
I can't get your claws out of my guts
I'm thinking of you
And the things you do to me
I'm thinking of you
And the things you do to me
This is my mind gETOUTOFIT
You didn't want it
How come you're still hanging around in it?
This is my body LETGOOFIT you didn't want it
How come you're still fucking controlling it?
This is my night get lost in it
This is my bridge stop crossing it
This is my face, stop smiling
This is my space you been gone so long
How come I still find you hiding?
Fighting me i'm fighting my darkest parts
I'm frightened nightmares
Tighten my hands round my own throat
'Cause you're the snake charmer and
I'm the old rope no hope
Just go now please, just leave
Still in the air that I breathe i'm stranded
Arms outstretched for a body any body
Here's a body
But I wake up and I can't stand 'em
I feel so grubby
Don't want can't stop just love me
Breath like a cigarette stubbed in the gutter
Come close, no wait - don't touch me ugly
Push and pull phonecall beep
Beep looking through names
For the one that feels most dangerous
I can't believe you're in love again
I can't open my heart
To anybody but strangers
I'm thinking of you
And the things you do to me
I'm thinking of you
And the things you do to me
I'm thinking of you
And the things you do to me
I'm thinking of you
And the things you do to me