6am In Ichigaya

(Verse)
It’s always something never sitting right that has me greeting sunshine on the darkest days
The past continues creeping on me in a different way
All of the possibilities would slowly branch out
Oh, how this life would change if I decided I should shut my mouth
People I used to see when walking the halls
They’ve started families and that’s the point when I feel the fall
Like at what point will everything begin to fall into place
And when can I finally breathe without the past in my face
All of those opportunities that passed me by, I regret that
Now everything that’s given to me now I try to press that
Cause once it comes and goes I get reminded by the next man
That everything that glitters isn’t gold, but it’s a blessing
It’s kinda fucked that when you finally move on
The one you wanted reaching out could never hear it in song
It took somebody else bringing out the best to send a message
But because of history, we let those moments turn to lessons
I can’t falter anymore, I only want what is mine
I’m still adjusting to the fact that I may always have time
Still accepting everyone is not united in mind
And when those colors start to show that’s when I should see the signs
But look, I believe too hard in second chances
Thankful for the ones who showed me kindness and acceptance
Cause when it feels they only want me round at their own benefit
I smiled in knowing someone actually wanted something from the kid
Fighting with the urge to erase myself from existence
Thankful y’all don’t let me continue to create distance
I’m given enough when I need the time to myself
My only wish is finding ways I can better manage my health
How hypocritical to help everyone else when you can’t even follow through with what you said to help yourself
What a waste to keep what you think’s truly trash when there are people celebrating what you share as greater wealth
And still the demons steady march, through it all we find ways to smile
But everything repressed ends up slowly turning to bile
And then we lose the image of what we wanted to be
The people notice how you change and that’s when they all start to leave
Lately, I can’t say I haven’t been down
Once again, my lack of motivation leaks in my sound
Can’t stand the worry in my soul and why I feel like I’m bound
Don’t send no party after this, I promise I’ll be around