Disease

If I take away the screen, and all that you have left is me
Could I then sufficiently, provide you with the words you need
I am strong and I am kind, I have a queer and curious mind
I'd like to leave the pain behind, I wonder could you help me try

It's not that hard for me to say, I cry all night and sleep all day
Could I be another way? Or could you tell me it's okay
I am sad and I am afraid of colder nights and warmer days
As time goes by I feel the same, my fear is getting in the way

Who could I but hope to be? If I let it let go of me
So many years I've yet to see, the hardest part is wakening
I am dark and insecure, I don't yet know what this is for
But I can't do it right I am sure, I've tried I've failed I'll try no more

They all say I'm doing fine, but they are not inside my mind
Every moment that goes by, I wonder why I even try
Loneliness is a disease, it brings me daily to my knees
There's no cure found yet for me, this illness costs me everything

I'll try to live a better life, and leave this darkness all behind
If only you were by my side, I'd look ahead with shining eyes