Numb! (Freestyle)

I've been feeling numb lately
Everything we had, yeah you know it was amazing
They say feelings change like the seasons
Betrayed me like a treason
And these demons I got, they've been creepin lately
And honestly i'm going crazy
Is it cause of you, or about you
I don't know, I don't know

I just wanna be the one you run to
Put you in a Mercedes, bumpin YT gettin faded on a little indica
Pour my soul into your bloodstream
I label myself a fiend at times, but I think it's just my cry for help
I've never felt
A love so true
What do I do, if you leave
A beautiful Queen, is this a dream
Damn
Just wanna be your man
Who got everything planned out
Life is unpredictable, subtract the hoes
Add the passion and jokes
I know that I do the most
But
Let's be real
Would you take that or someone who treats you terrible low
Would you
Would you

As a kid I never really felt love
So i'm sorry if I do this wrong
It's not my intention
I never really had a mom
Wish I had a relationship with my father
But why bother when i'm already too far gone
These pills that i'm on don't do my life justice
Hate to resort to the substance
Tryna find myself some help
And
I apologize to anyone I ever made feel less of themselves
Shit
Yeah i'm sorry
Yeah i'm sorry