Unrequited
Hey, I just wanted to call
To say thanks for last night
i stayed awake, couldn’t sleep
Thinking about you and me
And I know we’ve only been
On a handful of dates but
I can’t think straight
Or even finish the food on my plate
It just sits there getting cold
While my mind drifts to stories untold
That I hope become true
And I don’t know about you
But I’d love to see this through
We’ve got something real
I love how it feels when you walk in a room
And the scent of your perfume
The way you smile
And how your voice looms so large in my memories
Our chemistry is undeniable
I hope you see it and feel the same way but hey
I’m not trying to rush things
You just bring me happiness
That hasn’t been there in a while
The past year felt helpless through all of the trials
And judging from the maniacal attitudes
I’m in denial that I’ll choose to go back home
It’s better I live alone
But this conversation isn’t for over the phone
So I’ll let you go
Just wanted to say
Thanks for healing some of my sorrow
I’ll see you tomorrow
It’s me, wanted to see how you’re doing
I know you got a lot on your mind
I don’t wanna take too much time
But I’m worried about you
All the strain you’re going through
Responsibilities are growing too
And I’m sorry to hear about your cousin
There was nothing you could do
Don’t put that blame on you
Tomorrow skies will be blue
And she’ll want you to see another day through
Smiling and living your truth
But that doesn’t mean it hurts less, I know this
Just wish it wasn’t on you
With so many deadlines near
I guess it’s that time of year
But I fear I’m not helping the situation
Only making it worse for
The problems which you’re placed in
I get the sense every instance we’re together
You have better things to do
There’s always other plans
And in public you don’t wanna hold hands
I’m questioning every move I make
Wondering if this is real or fake
I’d love to hear your take
But we can save that for another day
Oh, by the way, I still have the bill
From the hospital, I’ll get it to you
As soon as possible
I know your sister was furious
And refused it the other night
She feels she’s right
But we did what needed to be done
You never left her side
Asleep next to her until the sun rose
And we caught a ride
All that from an unfortunate fall
Hold on, I’m getting another call
I need to take this
It’s my apartment about the papers
I’ll talk to you later
Hope you made it home safely
I know that drive isn’t the easiest
But I appreciate you making it
I’m not sure why I’m calling
Other than to apologize I guess
I never meant to disappoint you
But obviously I wasn’t enough
You said it wasn’t me
And maybe one day I’ll believe that
But right now all I can think of
Is I wasn’t enough
Giving you my time wasn’t enough
Leaving you space wasn’t enough
The notes, the flowers, the kisses weren’t enough
The support and encouragement wasn’t enough
Everything I did wasn’t enough
Everything I didn’t do wasn’t enough
I never wanted to think about
You telling me you’d had enough
You couldn’t even look at me
But the worst part of it all is
I always knew this day would come
I knew I wasn’t enough
No matter how hard I tried
I was reminded every day
Of not being enough
I’m sorry for wasting your time
I’m wasting it even now
I don’t know if you’ll get this message
But I’ve said enough
I just hope that one day
Somebody treats you with-