Blackout

And this is why I got I blackout
And this is why I got I blackout
Know I'm terrified, I might take my life
Baby, when I say these words, know you wanna cry
Thoughts of suicide and I can't deny
Baby, when I say these words, hope it saves a life
Know I'm suicidal and I can't deny
Baby, I'm just counting down my final days of life
This little heart of mine, it's going through survival
God can you forgive me, this against the bible
It's getting really hard for me to get up
Everyday is getting harder think I wanna give up
My momma didn't raise a quitter
Everyday is getting colder feeling like it's winter
I wish I could say something positive, something so thought provoking
Everyday I'm feeling bothered even when nobody's talking
I should keep my breathe, nobody cares I know it
No these are not just lyrics, I feel this pain like every second
And this is why I gotta blackout
Know I feel my stomach turning, I won't tap out
But I might lash out before I pass out
Know I'm feeling close to heaven I won't back out
Know I'm terrified, I might take my life
Baby, when I say these words, know you wanna cry
Thoughts of suicide and I can't deny
Baby, when I say these words, hope it saves a life
Know I'm suicidal and I can't deny
Baby, I'm just counting down my final days of life
This little heart of mine, it's going through survival
God can you forgive me, this against the bible
Way too many cuts deep into my heart
Tell me when I fall, would you care at all?
Would it scare you if I took my life, Oh
What if I told you it's just feeling right, though?
And this is why I gotta blackout
Know I feel my stomach turning, I won't tap out
But I might lash out before I pass out
Know I'm feeling close to heaven I won't back out
Know I'm terrified, I might take my life
Baby, when I say these words, know you wanna cry
Thoughts of suicide and I can't deny
Baby, when I say these words, hope it saves a life
Know I'm suicidal and I can't deny
Baby, I'm just counting down my final days of life
This little heart of mine, it's going through survival
God can you forgive me, this against the bible