Stuck With Life

Stuck with life
Stuck with life
Having anxiety and depression
Looking in the mirror, yea he stressing.
Hand over heart, like he pledging
Going into battles, no ammunition
Glancing at the sky, holding back tears
It's like he passed away, but he still here
Here physically, not mentally
Love is playing games, playing hide n seek
Heart keeps racing, hadda pause it
No cure for 300 cuts, made it a spartan
Got a shield up, losing red stuff
Inna different warzone, you can't build up
I'm exhausted, to many cold nights
Don't like when it get bright, I got stage fright
I'm smiling outside, always internally broke
Got this heater on, but my heart still cold
Brain is a map, unknown where to go
Confused with life, Dora loading slow
Hard to stay composed, I keep buffering
Tryna push this last rep, forever struggling
Wont be whole again, rest not the medicine
Half way asleep, left side aching
Heart is vulnerable, made it wear a vest
Status unknown, cardiac arrest
Trying my best, it's just not enough
Contemplating with my brain, about giving up
Man I'm just stuck, unattended and alone
People disregard the kid, he quiet and he grown
On the daily, fighting independently
Attempts to get answers, strangers & memories
Yea it's getting to me, bouta be history
Anchor to his foot, he below the sea
Having all this grief, this demon killing me
Thinking I should leave, I'm falling like the leaves
Yea he joking, but he hurting
Yea he joking, but he hurting
When you at cho low, world brings you down some mo
Watch what you say, he got things at home
Patting down his clothes, key to his heart
Stuck at the door, confused where to start
His heart need a charge, no one hits his phone
If god said today, he is going alone alone
Yea, yea, yea
Stuck with life
Stuck with life