Going to a Going Away Party

I wouldn't call it shame
I'd call it embarrassment
And it's not that I'm indifferent
I'm just used to that same old feeling
I'm just used to the same old way
There wasn't a drastic change in how you looked at me
You seemed more aware or more focused or more defeated
This time, it will be different for all of us
We'll finally live without what we do
This time, it will be different